There are times when we can be our own worse enemies. Sometimes we allow fear to overwhelm us. We don't want to be anxious and fearful, but it can be something that is so deeply ingrained within us that we just can't seem to help it. I shouldn't speak for others, but I know these feelings all too well.
I have tried dealing with the worries, anxieties, and fears, but I can't do it on my own. Sometimes new fears pop up in the most inconvenient times. Today I learned that I am a little bit claustrophobic. I was supposed to have an MRI done today and I was very willing to do it. I was on the table and something like a catchers mask of sorts was placed over my head and I had head phones on. There was a mirror so I could see the technician, (who was super nice and awesomely gracious by the way), but when it came to being placed into that tunnel my fight or flight starting to kick in. I started to feel dizzy and warm all over. I told the technician what was going on and she brought me out the tunnel and we talked some and then gave it another try. The same thing happened unfortunately. I apologized. I told her I felt bad. I felt like I wasted her time, but she assured me this happens sometimes.
Sometimes we just can't help to be a little afraid of the unknown. The Lord is always with us every step of the way. Sometimes we get afraid, but that doesn't mean we are failures or wimpy. We all have our short comings. There is not one of us that is perfect. Sometimes we can be hard on ourselves when we feel like we have failed at something.
I will try again to have my MRI in a few weeks with some medicine from the doctor and with a focus on the Lord. The Lord Jesus still loves us and He will always be by our side even when things don't go well.
Lord,
We praise Your Name.
Help us to focus better upon You.
Help us not to be anxious and afraid.
Grant us a peace in our hearts and minds.
Empower us to live for You.
Lead us and guide us by the Holy Spirit.
In Jesus Name,
Amen.
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